sinking into sweet uncertainty

2008-12-06T14:30:00.000+08:00

I'm so addicted to this video. Rock band kasi. Damn...

2008-11-30T15:26:00.000+08:00

OMG super saya ng concert kagabi. Pisay concerts are so underrated. They're the most fun ones but no one goes. Well, that's part of what makes them fun. Nasa harap ka lagi. I had to go early so yeah. Pero damn, galing ng lahat ng bands. Lalo na si Guce. Go Samapi! :D

2008-11-29T13:23:00.000+08:00

I'm not at the fair...

I got sick yesterday. Init kasi. Well, masasabi ko lang sa fair, it's better than last year's. Hindi rin fun kasi the sophomores and freshmen took over it. Gah. Oh well...

Fair concert later. Yay. Hope I don't get more sick...

2008-11-23T15:51:00.002+08:00

Uh... Okay, so about the weekend...

Friday

It was pretty normal. Classes, tapos Paskorus elims tapos wala na. Nung dismissal. I went to Prom Comm for like 2 seconds then went to Math. Tapos after Math, dapat manonood ako ng Pisay movie but hindi na lang kasi I needed to rest. Wala akong sundo so Kuya Bam had to fetch me. Past 7 na siya dumating. Sumabay si Luna hangganng Pioneer. When I got home, I slept.

Saturday

I got up at 6:30, cooked breakfast, took a bath and got dressed. Medyo late na kami nakaalis so I went straight to UP instead of passing by the PTA meeting. I was the earliest to get there. Tapos yun, puro MTG people. Scary..

Mathira Mathibay... Dorky ng name pero the thing was no joke. The written part was pretty easy coz we had 1 1/2 hours. We were scared na hindi kami makakapasok sa quarter finals since 71 yung teams and 24 lang kukunin. But yeah, both Pisay teams got in. Nauna sila Diane, Benetta and Arvin. They got in sa semis. Kenny, Jepoy and I didn't. Kalaban namin yung Baniqued sisters. Omehn. Tapos...Pasok sila Diane sa finals against Grace, St. Paul, MakSci, CSA Makati and CKSC? Yeah, tapos naging Tied sila ng MakSci but they won. Super saya. Tapos I went home and slept.

Sunday

Dapat nasa MOA yata ako ngayon with the Singaporeans pero shit ang daming homework. I just needed time to relax so now I'm writing this. I don't wanna go to school tomorrow. Stress...

2008-11-20T20:59:00.001+08:00

Tae naman o. I left school at 6 tapos super traffic agad sa EDSA. It took us 1 hour to get from Pisay to Kamuning. Damn. Buti nlng we didn't pass EDSA after that so it took us 2 hours total to get home. I was planning on doing so much pa naman. Oh well. Badtrip na ako.

Oh yeah, I love Felix na. Yay. <3

2008-11-15T22:38:00.000+08:00

Okay... My feet hurt like hell..

Went to XS with mom then to Celeb to meet with sila Cat, Sarah, Cam and Tita Mercy then went to UP to see Tita Mila. Then, we went to Shang to get my prom dress made pero wala yung color na gusto ko so we went to SM then back to Shang. I'm gonna buy nlng a dress..

Yeah, boring entries. Tinatamad ako eh...

2008-11-14T20:12:00.000+08:00

Just got back from Rosal outing in Tagaytay. Thanks, Wak and Almirante Family.

I love Rosal..

Lazy to make kwento...

2008-11-12T20:01:00.000+08:00

Nandito sila ngayon... Sr party. Yeah...

So matutulog dito yung ibang people. Puro rock band lang kami so yeah. Ewan. =))

I dunno what to say. I shall sum everything up na lang sa end ng weekend.

Yeah

2008-11-11T19:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MA'AM DOCTO!

Yeah. Tapos we woke up then Diane came then we played a little then we cooked.

Super I felt sick so I slept kahit nandito si Diane tapos we cooked again..

Rosal na bukas. Yay! :D

2008-11-10T21:12:00.002+08:00

Okay, ita yung reaction ko sa CF awards thingy ni Iman. DITO

So yeah, like every other girl in the batch, I think it's stupid. Sige, they wanted people's opinions and stuff pero ba't parang ang mali ng lumabas? Dude, wala bang taste ang mga lalaki sa Pisay? Oo na, forgiven na gumawa kayo ng stupid list na yan at spinread, but couldn't you at least make it right? As in seryoso, antanga ng mga lumabas. Ask nyo pa lahat ng ibang tao sa batch.

Guys, sabi niyo "beauty" so dapat yung naturally maganda talaga yung nandun. Yung hindi kailangang may magandang hair or nagpapaganda or sexy para maging maganda. Not counting rin yung personality or anything. Yung kahit magpakalbo, sobrang WTF ang ganda pa rin. Tignan nyo, true ba yun sa rankings sa list? Hindi. You guys are WRONG.
Okay, beauty is relative, whatever. Pero seryoso, asking guys, bad idea. Lalo na guys our age, feeling ko puro boobs lang tinitignan nila eh. What do THEY know about beauty? Tingin ko, the people who know the girls of the batch most are the girls of the batch. If you ask us to rank each other with no bias, seryoso, sobrang tama yung lalabas. Try nyo.

Ayun, yun lang. Wag kayong magalit na ginawa nila, nagawa na eh. Magalit na lang tayo kasi ang tanga ng pagkagawa.

2008-10-29T20:00:00.002+08:00

Okay, so scholarship committee meeting today, which meant halos walang klase. So yeah, we had health sa gym, talked about alcohol, then had STR and this super wtf lesson. Super fail si Kuya Kent sa pagturo ng Chem. Tapos we went to Physics pero wala si Master Lim so we went to watch Brandon.

Nung STR, Nico was asking people for coloring materials for Brandon kasi poster making contest nya tapos di nya alam, so I lent my colored pencils and Pate lent her pastels. Other people like Wak and Minnie lent him stuff too. Tapos yun, we watched. Super bitch ng host person. Kasi, we were noisy tapos she was all "kung natalo yung representative ng Pisay, di namin kasalanan." Whatever... Sobrang astig ni Cueto na contestant. Nung sabi ng host person "time starts now", everyone was rushing and thinking and stuff. Brandon, on the other hand, took out his lunch and started eating. Tapos we watched for a while then I went to the gazebo. We went back rin mga 2 times. Cueto didn't want to show us what he made so we had to try to peek pa and stuff. Tapos nung nakita ko, ewan. Kasi super iba sya sa mga ibang posters. The others were the typical colorful cartoony collage-like things. Cueto's was simple and light, since puro colored pencils. Tapos, we had class na and practice. Tapos nung Chem, biglang Brandon came to the room with a bunch of money. First place mehn. Yay him. Haha

At yun ang araw ko. Things have been weird lately and I dunno what's happening. Gah.

Off to Bora on Friday. Wish me luck..

2008-10-28T10:29:00.002+08:00

OMG I haven't been writing pala. Whee. Nasa CS class ako and we're waiting for Sir Binky to check our lab exercies. I shall add later. Lol

2008-10-23T20:26:00.002+08:00

Ang sabog ko for the past few days. Since the new classroom rearranging thing and the heat, super wtf ko. Sobrang init talaga. Like kanina, lunch pa lang, pawis na pawis na kami. Ang stupid. Tapos I've been tripping a lot lately. Yesterday, papunta kami ni Fids sa caf tapos nadapa ako sa root ng puno. Now may scrape ako sa knee. Rar. Bahala na. Grabe, ang sucky na ng school. Ayoko na...

2008-10-21T19:51:00.002+08:00

RETREAT

Last week was one of the most stressful weeks this school year. Last week lang kasi kami talagang nagprepare for the retreat. Kuya was in the hospital so mom was busy with him. Nung Sunday, pumunta kami sa Recto to get the pins done. Oh, the design was made by Jon my love. Then, nung Monday, I had to fix the pin designs para mas madali ipagawa. Then, I went to the hospital to help mom take care of kuya. Nung Tuesday, Cam, Juan and I went to Trinoma to "meet" and buy supplies. We met sa PRP then talked about the retreat in Starbucks. Super tagal naming nag-usap na we forgot to have lunch and we ended at like 3. Tapos, we went to National to buy stuff. Tapos we went to Landmark to buy candles, but there were no more candles so we had lunch. Tapos yung pins daw may problema so i had to work that night. Then Wednesday, I did nothing yata. Oh, I got the starmaps printed and stuff and did the room assignments. Thursday, I did last minute everything and palancas and I packed. Friday, I woke up early and got ready. Tapos TJ came and we went to Pisay. There, I crammed palancas and helped out a bit. Then, we left na for Tagaytay..

Hayyy... The retreat was super fun. When we got there, yung nag-orient sa amin sobrang nainis tapos nag-walk out. Then, we went to our room, and blah. Then I think we learned the Italian Padre song thing from Father Mon. Then we had dinner yata then we got to work. We moved the chairs to the side and began making our human board game na ginawa mostly ni Juan. Cam also prepared the Human Bingo papers. Tapos medyo late na kami nagstart. We played Disturbia as
our batchmates entered the room. Then, we started. Basta. Words can't describe how fun that night was, thanks to Juan. It was super great.

Saturday was the more religious day. The speakers were not boring at all and we had this Amazing Race thing pa. Favorite quote ko from the speaker was something like "Ateneo..yung school sa harap ng Starbucks." Sobrang burn nun. Hahaha. Tapos we had confession and one on one talks. I really really felt bad. I started to tear up when I was in front of Fr. Mon confessing everything. Sobrang nakakakonsensya yung experience na yun. Tapos when I went out of the chapel, si Nico pa nakita ko tapos he felt really bad so super emotional ng moment na yun. Then, I think I sneaked into our room and got some of the Palancas I needed to finish. Then, we started preparing for palanca night. We lit 2 big candles and placed them at the front of the room where the council was. Then, one by one, each section entered and formed a circle around the palancas of that section. Tapos we said some stuff and asked the class presidents to light the candles of their classmates. Then, we let them get their palanca envelopes. It kinda depends on the person if he enjoyed the night or not. Basta ako, I had fun coz parang sobrang narelieve ako.

Sunday was okay. Nagprayer kami tapos nagmass tapos nagpicture. I hope naman they enjoyed. Super naghirap ang council para doon. The trip home was boring. Wala akong katabi so I just slept. I went down sa Ayala with TJ then we went home. I was so tired when I got home so I just lay in bed. I fixed my stuff later that night..

Lesson learned: Stop cramming batch stuff...

2008-10-12T00:43:00.002+08:00

I WANNA DIE

Hey you, you think I'm emo, don't you? Well, fuck you man (Guevara, 2008). I feel bad and I think I don't deserve to live so if you're an anti-sadness sparkly rainbow unicorn, then go hide in a gingerbread house. I've done a lot of bad things to people, like really bad. Well, not physical things, more of emotional blah. I think it's a result of my insecurity and it's my way to get back at the world for being such a bitch. Oh yes, I think I'm now as bitchy as the world itself, even more bitchy than Nico or Kuya Kent (uy joke lang ah). Hay.. basta. I've hurt people and I constantly hurt people through my words and actions. I don't think I've gone a day without insulting someone or hurting someone. I don't think I've ever been loyal to anyone in my life. I am bitch and I should die.

2008-10-11T12:56:00.002+08:00

Sembreak day 1

I slept at like 8:30 last night tapos I woke up at 7 kanina. Then, I went to my parents' room tapos wala yung mom ko and yung kuya ko. Sabi ni dad nasa doctor. Tapos, nagluto ako ng breakfast at kumain, then I went back to my parents' room. Sabi ni dad mababa platelet count ni kuya. I stayed there for a while and waited for my dad to tell me na may dengue si kuya and he needs to be confined, tapos yun, sinabi nya. I wanted to bake him eclairs kasi favorite nya yun but i realized he can't eat anything. Oh, and our kitchen's being renovated so yeah. Now, I'm super bored, waiting for my other kuya to fetch me and bring me to the hospital, but he's probably still at work. I dunno. Bahala na...

2008-10-02T16:56:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CATLINA!!!

Catlina left for Hong Kong last year. She comes back often but I don't get to see her. She was my good friend in ICA and I really miss her so yeah. I miss you, Cat.

Anyway, day 3 of the 6-day weekend was okay. Hindi ako sumama sa Trinoma coz I had to do stuff. I finished the STR methodology so now I just have to fix it. Yay +6!

Well, I thought it would really suck not going to Trinoma with them. I miss them kahit 3 days pa lang. Buti na lang Fran has bronchitis. (Joke lang, Fran. Get well soon.) So kinausap niya ako. Biglang naalala ko yung summer. Parang ang daming nagbago since summer and I kinda don't have time for my out of school friends anymore. Naisip ko rin na I kinda take my friends for granted. I really do. Oh well..

I remember something I told Marielle before. Parang "Studies before friends" or something. Do I spend too much time on my academics? I dunno. Ang stupid ng sinabi ko. Ewan...

Lol, parang puro emo yung mga entry ko. Oh well. Hahaha.

2008-09-30T20:35:00.004+08:00

Whattaday.

So Athena called me at around 5:30 (Tulog pa ako.) tapos sabi niya nasunog raw and blah so I texted some people, then I went back to sleep. Tapos when I woke up, niyaya ko si Borgy magpractice so we planned na, but when I asked my mom, she was like "You can't go out until you finish KGW" blah. Sobrang nainis talaga ako. Then I pretty much slept the rest of the day. Sobrang useless.

Ang dami kong gustong gawin pero hindi ko magagawa coz I have to read this stupid book. Damnit. Oh well. I shall not read it talaga...

2008-09-29T19:52:00.002+08:00

Wala akong masyadong time magsulat ng blog entry. Required kasi. Gah..

Well, basically emo ako. Happy ako nung umaga tapos nung lunch, wala na. Then, wala kaming ginawa until 3:20 tapos Chem tapos sobrang badtrip yung mga scores sa probset. Yun.

Ang ewan ng araw na 'to. Well, perio na bukas. Gotta go study. 18 pages of book notes to go. Yay me. Lol. Sige, yun lang...

2008-09-28T19:22:00.002+08:00

MGA JOLOGS SA SIMBAHAN

Sorry for the term. Sobrang nainis kasi ako kanina sa mass. Kasi uhh... our neighborhood is kinda...well, not so god. Iunno... Like, there are scary boys walking in the street making noise and vandalizing our gates. That kind of not so good. So sa mass kanina, may isang group ng guys na sobrang ingay. Sarap patayin. I mean, hindi ako galit sa mga jologs. Yun yung gusto nilang style eh. Pero yung mga jologs kanina sa simbahan, di ko talaga kaya. Sige, hindi ako laging respectful pero at least nirerespeto ko ang Diyos. Sila, nag-iingay tapos yung songs sobrang ginagago nila. They kept on laughing and stuff, tapos nung sign of peace blah, sumigaw sila ng "peace sa inyong lahat!" Grabe. Well, that goes to show na meron talagang difference yung mga tinuruan ng manners at respect.

Meron rin namang use yung mga jologs sa simbahan. Pag tinitignan ko yung mga sinusuot nila, I know what kind of clothes NOT to wear. Like, yung headband kong pink na may ribbon. Nung nakita kong ang dami nang sumusuot ng headband na may ribbon sa simbahan, never ko na ulit sinuot yung headband ko na yun. Tae ang sama ko talaga. Nainis talaga ako kanina eh. Okay, back to good person mode.

In other news, I tried to read KGW, but my head started hurting so I watched TV. Then, Damian asked me about Bio so I did our report. Then, I read book notes tapos mass na. Now I'm watching Spongebob. Yay!

2008-09-27T17:36:00.005+08:00

Since puro friends ko lang naman nagbabasa ng blog na 'to, I think I can write about some personal stuff.

Well, about my day.. I woke up at 7 coz i slept at 9. I did STR, then submitted it. Then, I got really bored so I watched Lipgloss. Nakakatuwa. I watched 3 episodes (Walang episode 4 sa Youtube). Then, I got bored again so I made a layout. Then, I got bored again so I went online and got to talk to Gorio about our problems, and it kinda got me thinking about...stuff....

[I removed this part coz I'm afraid other people will read it and what I put was kinda mean so yeah. Malas mo pag di mo nabasa. Haha.]

2008-09-26T13:53:00.000+08:00

RANDOM

Wheee! Nasa com sci class kami. Wala lang. Ang saya ng araw for some reason. Yay!

Ang bangag ko sa umaga, parang may hangover. Tapos nagpakatino ako nung STR habang nag-iingay sa library, tapos ewan na. Hahaha.

Ang autistic ng lunch. Nakakatawa si Adie kasi kinakausap niya sarili niya. Oh, and may boyfriend na ako! Si Procopio! Tapos si Marielle dapat boyfriend niya si Franco pero ayaw ni Franco sa kanya kaya si KC na lang. I am currently looking for an MU. Any applicants? Nice joke.

Oo na, autistic ako. Sorry na..

2008-09-25T20:17:00.000+08:00

I haven't had enough time to post so yeah.

Maybe I should start with last Saturday. Athena's party was super duper fun. When I got there, vain pics na kaagad. Everyone was super hot (except me). MG actually looked like a person. Sobrang idol. I <3 Nico, my loyal date. Oh, and Cam and Marielle were so wild. Astig ng dancing part sobra. That was the party of the year.

There was something sad about that night. May time na naging emo ako, pero hindi halata. Uh, let's just say... inwan ako... Yeah. Buti na lang I had Nico my love and my new boyfriend. Whee...

This week was pretty weird. Sunday night was so crazy coz there was so much homework. Then like, sobrang wala nang ibang homework after that, and now there's a bio LT. Pisay talaga...

Bio.. Grabe sobrang wala akong natututunan pag Bio period. I think it's coz I don't listen. (Duh.) But Ma'am takes too long to discuss one thing and sobrang nakakabanas na. I never liked Bio and it looks like I never will...

So, I have to start studying if I wanna pass. Good thing I have my reliable friend Campbell and two powerpoints. Kaya 'to!

*Oh yeah, whoever took Damian's 5300? phone and iPod Touch, dude, wag ka ngang gago. Have a conscience. Ibalik kay Damian, please.

2008-09-12T20:53:00.000+08:00

[for Jay]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JAY!!! :D

Grabe, miss na kita. Di na tayo nakakapag-usap coz I don't go online much. Well, I hope you have a great birthday. I owe you two gifts na. Damn. In the two(?) years I've known you, parang ang dami nang nangyari sa atin and I'm glad we've become such good friends. Happy birthday ulit. :P

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So...today was very... fun... Well, actually Bio lang. Grabe nung Bio. Sobrang WTF. I dunno how it started, basta Adie said something about me having a bastos thought face. Then, Niccolo noticed some "lump" on Franco's crotch. Yeah, so like Franco started sitting closer and closer to me. Sobrang scary. Sobrang naiiyak na ako nun kasi ayaw talaga niyang tumigil. I was so ready to text his dad. Buti natakot siya. We were really noisy the whole time. Oh, then we started drawing a mustache on his face and Ma'am Docto finally got mad. Best Bio period ever.

I <3 Bio Table (Adie, Damian, Franco, Niccolo)
Magpakatino na tayo, guys.

2008-09-11T20:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MINNIE AND ESTELLE!!! :D

Today was really cool. 5/6 subjects merong quiz or long test. Fil lang wala. I so failed the 2 Math 6 quizzes. Gah. Well, anyway, nung lunch, nanglibre si Minnie ng pizza. It was raining so we went to the "cottage" beside the BRHM. Tapos nung dismissal, tinulungan namin si Don. :>

I have so much stuff I want to say but I can't really write it here so yeah. There's also very few people to talk to right now. I wanna rant though.. I'll just write a friends only entry in my multiply or something. Haha. Yay 5th entry!

hababerdi

2008-09-10T22:14:00.000+08:00

Today wasn't as bad as I expected. Actually, it was a pretty good day. Medyo fun siya kasi pagpasok ko, kinantahan nila ako, tapos maraming nakaalala so yeah. Yun, tapos normal day...

Lunch was really fun. When we got dismissed from Math 6, my mom said they were stuck in traffic so I got really worried and started getting emo. I was also pissed coz it was raining so we couldn't go to the gazebo. So yeah, we had it in the front lob. Ang daming food. 2 huge platters of spaghetti, 4 pizzas and 2 cakes. Kala ko hindi mauubos. I didn't think the gazebo people would go to the gazebo but they did so yay. Kumanta pa sila doon and stuff.Ang daming pumunta so naubos yung food. Yay. Basta, ang fun talaga kanina.

Thanks to everyone who greeted me, and everyone who took part in my "celebration".(including those whom I forced to eat) Thanks talaga guys. Super kinumpleto niyo birthday ko. Love you, batchmates! :D

HAPPY

2008-09-09T21:08:00.000+08:00

My entries have been emo, so I guess I should post a sort of happy one. I'll do it in Taglish para fun.

Masaya yung araw ko. Well, actually nothing special happened but it was really relaxing, kahit may Chem probset. Fun yung after school. Wala kaming magawa so we just went around and talked to people. Oh, tapos we read Talisman tapos sobrang nagkwentuhan lang kami. Fun. Yeah, I'm bad at expressing happiness so yeah. Well, I hope you feel my happy aura right now. :D :D :D Just a few hours until my birthday :D

Sweet Sixteen

2008-09-08T20:46:00.000+08:00

Gah, it's almost that time of year again. The time when I get sick, have lots of homework or I just get depressed. Yup, it's my birthday and it's only two days away. What makes it worse is that I'm turning 16. Not my favorite number.

I always imagined my 16th birthday being like a pre-debut thing. Like, a fun party without spending too much money. Well, it's not happening. I really wanted a drinking party, but my "noble" dad said we're too young. Then, I just wanted my friends to come to our house for dinner, but my dad said they were gonna start renovating last week(which they didn't) so that was out of the question. Eventually I just thought of bringing lots of food to school on my birthday. So I had my menu planned out: 2 big chocolate mousse cakes from Red Ribbon, 4 big Yellow Cab Pizzas and 2 platters of spaghetti. Just as my parents and I were planning how to get the food organized, my brother decides to join our conversation and says that it's better to buy Pizza Hut pizza and blah. Yeah, that really pissed me off. I just asked my mom to take care of everything after that, so now I have no control over anything.

Fine, my birthday's not gonna be THAT bad. I just don't wanna hope for something grand when I know nothing will happen. I think the best thing that could happen is many people remembering my birthday, but that's it. Good luck to me.

Oh, about gifts. Well, again, I don't expect anything grand. My parents didn't give me one last year so, yeah. Oh, and I know what he's giving me. Lol.

Haay, birthdays..

B*tch President

2008-09-07T22:34:00.002+08:00

Humanities Week is supposed to be a very happy, relaxing and carefree week full of fun events, exciting . The week itself was, but I just had so much stuff going on that I almost broke down during the week, and eventually did break down after.

Honestly, I didn't think being batch president would be this hard. I actually thought that with the right council and batch adviser, it would be pretty easy. I was so wrong. I guess I only realized how hard it is now because nothing really happened in the first quarter. Well, I finally woke up.

Being so relaxed for the past few months, I didn't realize that family day was coming. The idea that I had to start with the batch shirt came to me around three weeks ago, right after Ramayana. With the help of Juan and the rest of the council, we got to work. We chose a design and started getting orders two weeks ago. Obviously, it was pretty late. The batch lunch orders were only collected last week. Those were the main reasons why things didn't go so well. Another thing that added to the chaos was my lack of organization. I admit there are a lot of things i forgot to do that kinda made things bad. Yeah, it was my fault. Everything blew up in my face last Friday and Saturday.

I don't really want to go all emo with the details, so I'll just summarize everything. Family Day was not okay at all. The shirts were delivered late, some weren't even given and until now, some shirts still haven't been received. The batch lunch was better than I expected, thanks to my mom. Now, I still have a lot of problems with the payments and stuff, so I'm really tense and I'm really stressed. I have no one else to blame but myself.

I know I didn't try my best this time and I totally regret doing so. I think I let a lot of people down, especially my mom. Sorry to those who got kinda pissed at me. I'll make it up to you guys...

Three days left until my birthday, and I've never been more depressed in my life. The dorm open house made me a bit happier, but I'm still pretty emo. Don't worry, I won't cut myself. I hope things get better though, at least for this week...